Stuck

Why am I stuck?
I wan't to move. But can't.
I want to do. But don't!
I hate it. But still continue!
Its like I am fighting against myself.
The fight is a guerilla war.
My enemy is not visible.
But it is crippling my defences.
It probably hates me.
And strikes with a vengeance.
Which should explain the crippling helplessness.
I wan't to fight out a winner.
But can anybody please explain how to fight against yourself???